Drop Dead Swaggerific... and you love it

people say thats its usually better to be single. its not. come to reality. when your in a relationship you have someone to talk to 24/7 . someone to discuss your problems with. someone to kiss. someone to hold you and cuddle with you. someone to cry for you when your gone. its not the same if its your friend or your family, cause when your in a relationship, that someone is special . you can make them happy and get butterflies just to see them smile. or basically faint everytime they hug you because thats just how relationships are supposed to be. your partner is your heart. and being single you honestly almost have none of that . i hate being single, but its not MY fault no one likes me. yes i am a total dork and i dont talk much, but if boys would just take the time to get to know me , im really not that bad of a person. im more than just a weird kid that looks at the ground because shes afraid of what people might say and judge. im more than that socially awkward child. im more than the quiet girl in class who loves to be on her own. im more than just a person. i am me. and im amazing. im not a bad person. im actually a very hyper person. you can ask anyone from my previous schools. high school changed me, i cant be myself. and boys just judging me right away and automatically saying theres no chance is not fair to me. dont you think a person deserves one chance to prove herself. i know im not the most drop dead gorgeous girls or the type of girl who wears shorts up my ass or tank top showing my boobs, but thats because i respect myself and want people to like me for me, not my body. and hell, yes i already know im flat chested, dont gotta tell me twice. i know im not as skinny as a twig , but little did you knw that before i used to starve myself. i went through so much. and the little things i ever do , i still dont get noticed. maybe once in a lifetime will a boy just choose to talk to me than the girl that wears all the “cute” clothes. the clothes that attracts the men. thats all im asking for. i just want a boy to come up to me and say wow your beautiful and just tell me im pretty. but that never happens. i just really wanted to let go of it all. and let you know how i feel. and from now on im going to be myself and keep my head up going down the halls and act like a crazy person that i am. im gonna let go . but one thing i wont do is become insecure and wear “cute” clothes for guys . i just wish JUST SOME boys would be nice enough to compliment a girl thats not like usual girls and make her day. make her smile. let her know that she is pretty and that yeah a boy does think she exists. cause i see girls get so much attention from different guys and im just sitting here like yeeaah. awks. but when its your friends telling you dont worry, your gorgeous, your pretty someone will come your way, it doesnt help. sometimes you just need the proof that a boy does actually think your beautiful or pretty. and thats all i want.